A quite bright flash like admiration burns me like famous film’s one scene. Underneath my skin, twisters are temporarily swirling.
Sometimes they destroy my schemes made by optimistic thinking and sometimes they drive me away somewhere I’ve never seen.
One day, I wore shoes called keen used from teen, and walked a street, then Arare-Chang passed by me with saying ki-in. D’you know what I mean?
In here, everything seems they live in their own life. Strangely, it’s not only human but also animals like Canada goose. It is special for me cuz I’ve never feel like I could live in my life.
Furthermore before came here, I always feel being disturbed by such as values, rules and moods. Here are some minds of respect each other. I didn’t know the reason of Napoleon’s revolution or any mentions about liberty. I have still some misunderstood. However, now I have good intentions to carry on something.
How to betray my brain is strongly connected to learning language, I think. Before we express our feeling by words, we could never grab our feeling. After writing, only reading it enables me to understand my thoughts.
For example, when I see a kind of stick, two word would come up to my mind. They’re nagai and long. “Nagai” has longer history between me than “long”. I can expand the image only hearing or brainstorming “nagai”. I have to try to use English word and make history between them. And then, I should get to able to expand the image by only hearing or brainstorming a certain English word. It's a kind of betray.
What makes languages interesting is that even words that have the same meaning (like nagai and long) have different rhymes and widths of meaning.
Sometimes I'm confusing. It caused by like following situation. In the water, I couldn't see anything. After I moved out from water, I saw the video it's took me in the water. Then, I felt confusing because I realized at first that I opened my eyes so obviously! I never realize it even if I wouldn't be taken my video.
